复杂又头痛的事

今天发生了一些一直以来我都没想过会发生的事。。他竟然跟我说了分手的两个字=.=一直以来他都不会像今天这样，可是我今天果然体会到了。。他告诉我他妒忌我一直跟别人说话而不理会他。。他竟然有了这个借口来向我提出分手这两个字T.T。 当他提出是我真的很难接受，我边走边哭，更本就没看周围有没有车经过。。在我走下山的那一段路我差一点就滚了下山，幸好我另一只脚来得及顶着，要不然就不堪设想了。。后来我坐下来慢慢地听他说，我忍受不了他对我说的东西。。我一直用自己的手来捶东西，结果现在手都黑青了。。虽然过后是没事了，可是我真的很害怕会再有这样的感觉。。希望接下来不会再发生我不想要的事了。。

Difficult feelings

Duno why this few days i really hate myself..i duno why i will have this feelings..i juz think that what i doing now is rite...i didnt think carefully am i wrong or rite.. can i just think that what i doing now is just for myself? can i become more care about myself only? can i no need to think about others people? I really cant differentiate too much of things now because i duno what is wrong and right.. am i too care about 0ther people?is this make me feel that very unhappy? if now i have a choice, i want to become more independent..i dun have any choice to choose whether i need to put down all the unhappy things because nobody let me do it.. i really hate the feelings that make me like duno what can i do now..i prefer now have someone talk to me and let me dun think too much..